Don’t seek god… just feel it

Don’t seek god… just feel it

i have been living with 

my god for years

caring for my food,

nursing when sick

and i did not realize

who else can shell out,

life earnings on you, 

other than god.

 

wiped my tears, held me close

i felt my worries drain away

my mother, my sister, 

my wife, my daughter

the warmth and belonging, 

i cannot replace

still i did not recognize it

 

it was an unknown world

bright and dark too

in the brightness, i knew, he was with me

it was in the darkness, i got scared

i felt the hands on my shoulder

the friend i call him, what made 

him console me,

i failed to gather

 

in the land of unknown faces

i saw a few smiling, walking, 

talking and leading

surprised me to the place

which i thought was difficult to find

and then he vanished

dumb me, i did not thank him

 

invited for a celebration

clad in best, i step in dim-lit

small home, happy overjoyed faces

serving with love and care, 

you cannot miss

in return a hug is what they need

i stepped out, looked at the stars, 

and thanked

forgot the heaven i came out from – 

an ungrateful me

 

plenty of happenings, lessons many

they bruised me, honoured me

helped me understand the thrill

and what living for others, 

is meant to be

and when you feel you are lost

someone calls and says 

“papa we love you”, “we miss you”

tears roll down,

foolish me, and i still seek god?